No Where Closer to What?

The kids had great birthdays. The party was fun and the family was fine. In the last few weeks, they both have changed so much. G has decided that she can wash her own hair and she's doing it quite well. I figured it would turn into a greasy mess because she wouldn't be able to get all the shampoo out of it, but she has a system that works for her. P has really started trying to communicate his wants and needs. He points to what he wants and express dissatisfaction if you try to give him the wrong thing. He actually slept to 7:30 am for the past three days. This whole this worries me actually because I've been on vacation and he has gone to bed later than usual.What will happen when he has to start getting up early again?


Status on #3. Nothing has changed. For me or for R. I think I want a third most days and he doesn't want a third most days. I have to admit that sometimes I think it's the stupidist idea I could ever come up with. I struggle being a good mother to the two I have; why would I add another child who needed to be fed, bathed, and changed? I know that R will work late and go in early. He can't help during the week and he can't help on the weekends. Do I want to be a single mommy to three kids instead of two?


I have more questions these days than answers. The one thing I do know is that God will ultimately make this decision and lead me to the correct path. I just have to pray and have faith. Easier said that done for my control freak self. So, as of today, I'm no where closer. If I only knew what I was supposed to be closer to.